Moon that is blue

Its been a long time i haven't been blogging, just all of a sudden lose interest in it. Well, holiday is near and I'm waiting for a job, not gonna just sit in the house and make my ass bigger. Since yesterday I've been feeling down, don't even know why. And i started thinking alot and alot. First, i was thinking that I can't waste my time having puppy love, can't waste my time loving someone and doing things they like, changing myself for someone, always the one reaching out to someone. Now, I just want someone who would love doing things that I love, willing to give in to me just a little, and reaching out to me. I'mm really tired reaching out to people. Obviously its not easy to love someone for a long time, but i do believe that there is always somebody for that one person. perhaps one day my Prince will come along. All of a sudden thinking about my birthday celebration i had last year, with him by my side, and all my friends. Never thought that he wouldn't be around for my sweet 16 :)
But whenever I'm feeling down or sad, there is always this someone by my side, always there the minute i called out to him. he makes me feel so happy whenever i talk to him. He gives me the feeling that I can just close my eyes and lift all my problems to him. He never did once complaint about how talkative or bad tempered i was. Such a wonderful person huh? He has a very fragile heart too, but girls only know how to break it and stab it with a knife. He is the type of guy that a girl could hardly find nowadays. Even though he's young, he acts like a 18 years old person. He will always be my ear to listen to what i got to say to him. I will never forget him wherever i go. he will always be my best friend.
Will love at first sight last? Or it only last in dramas and movies? Can't i just be the heroin in the drama where she lives happily ever after? Maybe fairy tales are meant to be fairy tales. They do't exist. I have to learn to face the fact that life is not easy in this world and this world is a very cruel world.

P.S. Smile Lizzie ♥